sometimes my life doesn't feel as glamorous or enchanted as people think...ha ha ha
I was in downtown Los Angeles the beginning of this week...then I got home late last night...
and today, it just felt like one thing after another was spiraling into a horrible, sad day....
HAVE YOU EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE?
From small things going wrong, like not being able to edit and upload the video I wanted to....to big things going wrong.....that made me spend my afternoon trying not to cry when I had to run papers into places, so people wouldn't think I was crying!
I just felt like I wanted to run away, and that there was no where that I could run to that my problems wouldn't find me.
I have bad days. Sad days. Days when the things going wrong in my life, can begin to consume me and make me think I just can't handle this anymore. I won't bore you all with the depressing parts of my day...they are awful enough that I don't want to spread them around. ha ha ha) But I will say, I felt like I just wanted to escape, the emotions that these things bring to my life are overwhelming to say the least. I just felt, "if life is going to be this way...I just can't handle it anymore"!
Then I thought, "stop it kandee! You're not even listening to your own advice!"..."you are alive, you are breathing, you are strong"....
I needed a hug and I needed one bad! I did get a hug...but more importantly, I felt like I needed the arms of heaven to open up and wrap me in love and peace...and in that moment....I felt like, not just me, but my heart got the biggest hug from heaven....I got a God hug! Ain't nothin' like a heavenly hug. Calgon wasn't enough to take me away.....but I Called-God and he was enough!
BAD DAY INSTRUCTIONS:
1. sometimes we just need to take a break...stop whatever we're doing...know that we can call it a day. Watch a fun or funny "escape for your mind" movie. And know that you might just need to rest, take a nap or sleep, and when you wake up you'll feel more refreshed.
2. Eat something yummy. Sometimes we need to feed our hearts and soul.
3. Take a moment, and cry if you need to, sometimes that's the only way we water the garden of our heart and the rainbow can come out over our soul!
4. Remember that we are alive, no matter how our heart may feel like it's breaking, we will always feel better as time ticks on, the next morning, the next day, the next night.
5. Sometimes we can be like little kids, and run to God, his heavenly arms are always open and ready to catch us, hug us, and fill us with peace and happiness. He's knows our hurt, our pain, and he can heal our hearts faster and better than anything!
6. You are stronger than you know, you are braver than you think, and you can go through more things...with confidence than you can even imagine!
I love these words:
I will, continually count it all joy when I go though hard things, things that hurt...you know why? Because I will be stronger, I will have more endurance, I will be able to endure more...and I will NEVER quit! I will never quit being happy! I will never quit smiling! I will never quit being joyful!
So I say: TODAY, you will not ruin me with your heartaches. You will not ruin me with your words! You will not ruin me with all the things that have come against me and my heart! We will be victorious! And I will look back at all I've been through, and I will say: THANK YOU!
I love you all, and I stand with you, holding your hand in my heart....crying, maybe shaking, trembling and hurt....but we will make it! We will get through it! Feel my heart hugging you, holding your hand, saying, "I know what it feels like....but we are gonna make it sweet heart of yours!".....
in love and joy, your friend, kandee
